Delulu Letters

Week of August 11, 2024

Hello lovelies!

This is it; it’s finally time for a got-dang Delulu Letter, and I couldn’t be happier! In true Neecie fashion, I am here (after a bit of delay), and it’s all thanks to my penchant for setting things down and immediately forgetting about it.

I’ve been so ready to write, but of course, I had to wait until I could find the perfect deck for these letters to reference. The Star Spinner Tarot is my favorite deck; it’s absolutely gorgeous. This is also the deck that vanished into thin air right at the moment that I decided to write my first letter to you. My deck has revealed itself to me, and all is well. In truth, the time it was ‘missing’ was time much needed to take care of house and family things, so it worked out. Intros aside, I am really happy to be here, in this moment, with you.

YOU.

Take a deep breath with me - inhale, and
exhale, let it all out;
all of the nervous tension,
worries, fears, everything.

Just exist with me for a little bit, and I’ll draw a card in the meantime, okay?

Tarot Manifestations

The Star Spinner Tarot Deck is a gorgeous deck by Trungles, an amazing Vietnamese-American artist. I’ve said it before, but it’s my *favorite* tarot deck and what I’ll be using for weekly manifestations.

Not only is the artwork magnificent, there are 4 variants of The Lovers. Before a reading, you can choose to include in the deck the variant (or variants) that may call to you.

The Lovers, Reversed

The lovers reversed warns of broken unions. A cycle of mutual desire and beneficence is broken, leaving one or all involved parties feeling incomplete and bereft. The card may also indicate that a partnership has stagnated and begun to fester without proper care and attention. Can Eden be forever?

A warning of broken unions may not necessarily mean a romantic partnership or situationship; maybe you’re going through a rough patch with a friend or family member, maybe you aren’t feeling satisfied in your current role or workplace, maybe you’ve been struggling with who to trust enough to vote for this November or if you even want to vote at all (totally fair).

With how wild this year has been so far, it’s a perfect opportunity to reflect on where we are now and how we’ve gotten here. Are you closer to any goals you might have set for 2024? What I’m manifesting for everyone this week is for clarity and drive.

• Clarity to be able to decide what works for us to further our dreams

• Drive to give us that extra boost to make things happen

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A Reflection

I find this card interesting and a bit ironic, given that this week has been full of cooperation, communication, and co-parenting with my ex-fiance. Our rapport has been getting better, and I want to keep that momentum going. He’s been supportive of the steps I’m taking to get in shape (mentally, emotionally, and physically), get out of my comfort zone, and further into my writing journey. We’ve been working really hard to get along and it’s slowly but surely paying off. It’s so much healthier for our kids to see that we’re a united front and can still be a family unit, even if he and I aren’t together.

We all played Uno Attack last night after dinner; if you haven’t played this version before, I highly recommend it. Instead of the infinite draw that my kids despise, you can press the button; if no cards come out of the Uno Attack mystery stress machine, you can end the turn without having to draw again.

There’s something to be said about the feeling of anxiety that mounts until it’s your turn to draw, never knowing if you’ll be safe this time or if you’ll get caught in a deluge of cards. The same could be said of relationships.

With each turn, we don’t know if we’re safe or if cards will come raining down upon us instead. It’s when the situation almost leaves things to chance that I find that I am at my most focused, which is something I’ll never take for granted. The Lovers Reversed was fitting, both in reflection and in manifesting for this week ahead.

A Poem

Here’s a poem I wrote for you all, based on the game my family and I played last night.

Uno, Attack

the thing about uno cards
is that no matter what
the deck looks like,
the foundation;
the main cards 
are all still the same

the thing about uno
is that you can never be 
just chill when you play
there is never a dull moment
unless, somehow
you’re playing it wrong

reliably unreliable,
skip, draw two, draw four, uno

reverse

the process by which
we become soft, tired
cards whose edges begin to fray
until you are as lively and lovely
as your 8-year-old daughter
who wiggles her eyebrows to signify 
she’s about to yell uno

reverse 

the sands in the hourglass
to the moment an onslaught of cards spit out
at your 5-year-old son
raising his arms in victory
as his laughter infects us all

screeching, 
and crowing—
murder
by 

uno
attack.

Points to Ponder & Poem Prompts

• Think about the goals you may have set for the year. Have you achieved them already, or are you still on your way?

• What is something you’re hoping to get clarity on to further your dream?

• Write a poem about The Lovers, reversed. Or, write a poem about lovers, reversed!

• Write about the momentum that you want to keep going.

• Write about Eden and if it can be forever.

Until next time, my lovely little delulus <3

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Please feel free to share in the comments; I’d love to read your poems or learn about your dreams. <3